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Tuesday, June 12
Advil PM
So I took two, count 'em- TWO -advil PMs last night and I slept until 5:37! WHEE! But I was really groggy when I got up. Hard to drag my ass out of bed. I feel like a zombie.
Nothing new to report today, really. I did laundry and washed dishes last night. Very exciting. I should have been reading for class, but I didn't feel like it.
This morning I had TWO of those marathon calls where the people wanted to complain about EVERYTHING that's EVER happened to them, whether it related to my company or not, and they have to go WAY back and start at the BEGINNING...
"It all started when I was seven..."
So Karen got lucky and she's going to stay in Phoenix for an extra week (on Uncle Sam) so I get to fly back with the heathens. I'll throw those crazy kids off the plane, I swear! As long as they all have game boys and/or PSPs and I can make them sit far apart from each other, I think we'll be fine. HA!
Monday, June 18
new week
Seriously, I haven't blogged in almost a week? That's crazy.
Okay, well yesterday Dickhead had Bug call me because Bug was hysterical over having to go to bed early and wanted me to come get him. It was so traumatic. He was begging me "Please mommy, do it for me, just ask Daddy" and I got upset but I was trying to hide it... he could tell... then he tried to act all strong and said, "I'm sorry I made you cry." I just made things worse, I felt terrible.
We get new schedules today at work so this will be the deciding factor of whether I keep this job or quit to go to school. If I can't get a schedule that works with my classes I'm audi. I don't like this job enough to sit here broke as hell while I'm going crazy over taking full-time classes. I only need 400 bucks to make up the difference between this job and GI Bill money. I just feel sick about the whole thing, I never know what I should do. Should I just quit and throw myself into school and get it over with? Should I try to do both? I'll die, I'm going crazy just with the summer online courses. I don't get to see my kids enough as it is. I'm just going to quit when fall semester starts, it's all I can do. I can't rot at this desk while opportunity passes me by and I can't handle the stress of doing it all. FUCK, I don't know. Or I could just try to do both. No, I can't. It will take one whole night away from the kids. UGH, I just don't fekkin know what to do.
ANYWAY, enough of that. I'm sending myself into a downward spiral of despair.
Next week we take another trip into dreamland…